Shitty-Shit Life

Thanks a lot for the burden.

Thanks a lot for the problems.

Thanks a lot for being the worst among all.

I really feels like crying the whole time.

Guess it's just not enough.

You didn't even talk to me. You're such a problem!

I hate to say this, but I hate your attitude!!

I have these upcoming exams and there we go.

You give me such problems.

How can I tolerate when my family suffers.

Yeah!~ You're a family but you've done nothing but keep on hurting us.

Now, I didn't feel like studying anymore when I think of them.

You made me give up.

How I wish mum was here.

How I wanna say I miss her a lot.

How I wanna see she came and guide me.

How I wish she can help me handle this shit!

But no, I can only live with her memories.

Enough with the tests cause I can't take it anymore.

Enough with the fights cause I might die and suffers no more.

I love all of you but sometimes it doesn't feel like a family anymore.

And sometimes I don't wanna go home.

I envy those people who misses their family and can't wait to go home.

Yeah!~ I get that feeling everytime I'm afar from them.

But when I get back, the feeling's just faded.

I just feel thankful to my dearest, Heather & Vanessa.

To them, I may spill the truth.

And to them, I may hang on a lil bit longer.

Now, I can only pray to the Lord.

Give me strength, O Lord.

Give me faith, O Lord.

Bless us all, O Lord.

Together...That's my wish, O Lord.

Personality Test

Hey~

Let's go for some Personality Test.

Here's the link:

"Personality Test"

I just tried it and here's what I got!~

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
(Haha!~ Is it true? Do you really love me? Haha!~ But yeah~ I'm not too exposed. I like being mysterious....kunun! =p)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

(Hurmmm.... Ya..Ya..Ya....... I will definitely not going for "the look". Haha!~ Later, susah mo jaga. =p)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

(Of course! Duhh~ I won't date strangers. And even online dating. I really against it. But, if jodoh really comes from the net (FB, Twitter bla3...) terima jak la. Huu~ BTW, I really don't trust online dates. Hee~)

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

(Huarrggh? Am I really that getek? Haha!~ BTW, getek is normal. Haha!~ Well, of course I'll be serious. Just not now. I'm still catching my OWN future and moneyh! XD)

Your views on education:

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

(Hurmmm.... Yup, I think. People require more experience now. But I enjoy my life as a student now and I appreciate the knowledge. Just the pressure, it keeps me down all the time. All can think, I must finish my bachelor degree with a flying colour, get a great job and livin my life to the fullest! Yeah!~)

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

(Duhh~ Of course! Steady income, steady life, steady aku! =p But right now, I'm not really sure which pathway I'll choose. Wait and See!)

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

(I disagree! Yeah~ I'll spend my precious times with my love ones. But, having the right career where I can be successful, that's important. Unless I marry a rich man, then I'll leave it all behind. Haha!~ But still, I think a success in my future career is really important in life.)

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

(Ya~ I admit it. Sometimes I do try too hard. And FYI, I also think too much, I mean, towards the negativity. Hell man! I gotta change! Haha!~)

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

(Haha!~ What do you think? Maybe yes, or...Maybe not! I don't really like to share my own business. Hee~ But I enjoy helping others. *Sigh* Sometimes, I'm too good to others [not my intention to puji diri] that they may have stepped some frickin' shit on me. Well, I just can't resist that attitude.)

I don't know if they're true. (Well...... You may judge me~)

But, quite creepy.... I felt like it can read me (Hurmm...I just feel like some of 'em are ME!). *wink2...Sorry, there's too many "BUTs" in this post. Haha~*

Fun game tho.

~Have a try!~

Bonne chance!

XOXO Well, I'm just sayin'...

It's Not A Goodbye...

Yeah~

It's not a goodbye for our dearest Rebekah Tiong. In deed, it's a brand new journey for her.

You rock girl!~ I hope you are happy there with Him. 

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I still remember the first time I saw you during the MAP 2008. You are such a happy girl and damn friendly. I really like your attitude girl!

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Our first conversation was when I came to you a couple of weeks after MAP, asking about my cousin, who were your classmate during the secondary. And yeap~ Since then, we never missed to wave and say Hi to each other whenever we bumped into each other. Aww girl~ I really can feel your warmth towards all the people around you.

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When I was in the bus, going back to Sri Aman, we also used to bump with each other. You smiled and we had a small chats. Since then, I knew that you're doing some work in Sri Aman, being a music tutor. I'm touched! Because you're such a brilliant and pretty girl with a wonderful talents. How I wish to see you playing your instruments in front of us.

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You also had been the most cheerful person in the class. With all the laughter and the jokes during our class presentations, we really gonna miss that moment.

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I still remember my wish for your recent birthday. I said, "Stay gorgeous girl!" And yes~ You still look gorgeous and will always stay damn gorgeous just the way you are.

~Rebekah Tiong~

(2/10/1988 - 15/10/2010)

Let you be the best angel among all. You had spread your love in the world, among us especially, and now, it's time for you to spread your love in heaven. 

We love you very much girl!~ 

Just a simple post of mine to reminisce some memories of you dear. Hope that you find your peace in the arms of the Lord. 

It's not a total goodbye..Because you will always be remembered..Forever and Always~

Take care and I pray that God's blessings will always stay right beside you.

XOXO Well, I'm just sayin'...

Happy Anniversary

It's been a while.

I just wanted to say I love You and I miss You.

~ My Dearest One ~

You will always stays on our mind and strengthen our lives each day.

Let the blessings of The Lord be with you.

Amen.

~ Happy 6th Anniversary ~

I'm Mad

Grrrr!~

Why am I being very nice?

Why don't I just being bad to others and act like a bitch cause that's more like it.

But no, I just can't help it. All I can do is just whine and sigh, all by myself. How pathetic! It's good to be nice with my own friends...but with stranger? Hurmmm~ I barely know them and I act like an angel towards them. And now, they keep pushing me around and stepping some serious shit on me.

Today's been a rough day for me and yeah~ It is well-listed. 

1. I had a lot of labworks. Well, I still can cope with it. (as I'm a researcher-to-be)
2. It's such a hot day, and it felt like a burning oven in the lab. (Ain't it suppose to be a monsoon season here?)
3. Got some stupid minor mistakes during labworks and I got confused.
4. I went up and down from my college to the faculty and cafe like ten times today. (Damn tired man!)
5. Someone just keep pushing me around since like a few days ago and I didn't even said a shit about it. (Well, I still have my patience...until now, I'm about to burst!)
6. I still had my extreme headache until today and I don't know what am I going to do about it. (FYI, I had it since last Saturday)
7. I'm moody for the whole day. It's the PMS pain! That's just one of the reasons I can't control myself today.

Sorry all, because I just simply putting my shit here. 12/10 is really a worst day ever for me. 

Goodbye~ Gotta calm myself down.

XOXO Well, I'm just sayin'...